How I Want to be Remembered?

How I want to be remembered when I’m gone? This is not the question that we ask ourselves every day. Not for me anyway. I always have the dream that one day I will get married and have children. Grow old with my spouse, and maybe die together. But death is not in our hands. We can always plan and prepare, but only The Lord knows when and where we will take our last breath.

When I was a kid, I often daydream about building a huge leisure house with butlers, chefs, maids and drivers for my folks. I want them to only sit back and relax and everything else are done by others. It will be the best house ever, only for them. As I grow up I realize, a huge house is not everything. The most important thing is their happiness. Thus, I want to spend my life making them happy. For my folks, I want to be remembered as a child who always makes them happy.

One of my leisure hobbies is watching soap opera. The other one is baking. When I watch any episode of the series, I tend to eye the food they are eating then I will try to make it myself. Some of them turn out great but usually I did not get it right on the first try. I repeat the process two to three times to get the ideal taste that I imagined. After that, I will give it to my family and friends, as they are my loyal referees. I take their advice and improve my baking. For them, I want to be remembered as “the bountiful girl who can bake deliciously and never give up”.

In person, I am not the girly girly type who wears make up and put on fancy dresses every time I went out. I am more comfortable in my t-shirts, jeans, and sneakers or pretentious Vans shoes. When I walk down the street and unexpectedly meet my acquaintances, I raise my right hand and greet them with a “hello” or “assalamualaikum” and smile. I also smile at strangers who seems like they need a smile to brighten their day. Generally, I want each and everyone that knows me remember me as a cool and warm person who never fails to put a smile on her face.

Everyone has their own idea of how they would want to be remembered when they have gone. It will differ from each person to another, but everyone who touches our life will leave a mark in our heart. Be thankful that we have met all the person we met in our life, even the bad ones because they are the reason who we are and where we stand now.

p/s: This is the first assignment for this sem, given by our english lecturer. Dah lama tak speaking hehe

PSLM ehem ehem

Assalamualaikum semua. Cane hidup anda beberapa hari/minggu ni?

uhuk2 [bersihkan sesawang]

Okkay readers yang awesome sekalian, diumumkan bahawa saya sedang bizi nak exam. Biase lah, orang PSLM[Persatuan Stadi Last Minit] kan, mestilah da nak exam ni baru bizi kan wawawawawa.

Ade memacam teori lah pasal stadi ni. cube korang observe satu satu;

Hah ni parah gila. Stadi pon salah. Tak stadi pon salah. Aihhh

Ni pulak quote zaman SPM dulu

"Bila exam dah nak dekat, berak pon rasa buang masa"

Okay yang ni, tak tawu lah nak cakap camne. Tapi accuracy die hampir 100%. Okkey lah kite bagi 90%. AKU? Sempat lagi update blog ni hak3...

"Tahu tak apa kesetiaan? Stil bersama buku walaupun masa tidur.. 

Tahu tak apa tu kebahgiaan? bergolek atas katil bersama buku-buku.. 

Tahu tak apa itu kesungguhan? stay up sepanjang malam teutamanya pada malam "terakhir".. 

Tahu tak apa itu pengorbanan? melepaskan buku pada waktu paling "genting".. 

Dan tahu tak apa itu keberanian? Masuk dewan examwalau tak habis baca buku.."

dapat dari blog ni 

Okkey lah aku nak cau dulu nak pergi stadi kat fakulti aku [ceh bajet rajiinn kannn?]

Strive for the best, Do the best and insyaallah dapat lah result the best okkey sume!

Doakan lah kami semua yang nak exam ni. Smoge dapat kaler terbang-terbang bak kata Sarah Adiba. Aminn~

smile (^_^)v

Alhamdulillah

The first two days of April have been good to me even thought at the last day of May I feel like suicidal.

Allah,
Please make him strong. Give him strength.
Please make me strong.
Please make all my friends strong.

To face the days towards the end of the semester.

WE CAN DO IT!!

The Reality of April

This is what my first two weekends of April will look like.

The other half, battling with exam papers bebeh. 

All the best!!

Pasrah Gila

Memang pasrah habis. Dapat jawab ke tak, tetap kene mengadap jugak. Aku takkan salahkan orang lain.

Kalau dapat jawab, aku panggil rezeki. Miracle. Aku tak berapa nak strive.

Kalau tak dapat jawab, aku pasrah je lah. Sape suruh malas. Mood tak datang-datang.

Orang kata, tak mati pon kalau tak dapat jawab.

Tapi nak try jugak. Kalau tak try, macam mana nak tahu tahap kita.

Control semalam pon ade yg tak sempat. Tu stadi tu.

Machine ni, entah lah.

Kalau tanye pasal cerita transformers, memang aku boleh jawab lah.

Ni pasal transformer yang blaja mase sains dulu. Transformer injap naik, injap turun. Step up step down. 3 phase. Delta. Wye.

Baik stadi kan daripada merepek cani.

Daa~

Keroro

HAJIMEMASHITE! [greetings!]

Watashi wa Cooleustary desu,

[my name is Cooleustary]

 Dōzo yoroshiku! (^_^)

[Nice to meet you!]

Okay ni lah hasil first klas third language aku, bahasa Japang. Aku macam eksaited yang teramat bila dapat belajar benda ni sebab benda baru kan. Sebenar-benarnya aku nak belajar bahasa Korea tapi tak ada pulak choice bahasa tu kat fakulti aku, jadi aku ambik lah bahasa Japang.

Sempena keluangan diwaktu petang ni, aku pon search lah video kat youtube. Sekali terjumpa video ni!!

Aku pon dengan konfidentnya melukis lah mengikut gerak tari lagu ini. Aku tak tipu tau, aku tak guna pemadam pon, sebab tu lah buruk-buruk belaka haha. No cheating cheating...

Silakan gelak:

Goshōkaishimasu...

[Let me introduce you]

Dōzo~

[Silakan~]

Kochira wa Keroro-san desu;

[This person is Mr. Keroro]

Betapa cacatnya lah tangan beliau.

Kochira wa Giroro-san desu;

Ni lagi lah, kurang satu tangan.

Kochira wa Tamama-chan desu;

Aku letak -chan sebab beliau comel!

Kochira wa Kururu-san desu;

Kururu si suka gelak!

Kochira wa Dororo-san desu;

Their long lost friend.

Kesimpulannya, aku memang tak bebakat nak lukis badan. Muka tu, ok lagi lah rasanya haha.

New Sem

Assalamualaikum


Hey!

The new semester is waving to me hai hai...

The past semester is waving me bye bye...

So do the holidays! [sigh]...

I hope there's something new for the new sem..

My attitude!

-No more 24/7 fb,

-No more EVERYDAY outing,

-No more late shower [not good for your health though],

-More exercises physically and in study,

-More fasting,

-More holy Quran reciting,

-More hardworking and study smart [I think I'm born lazy, its in the blood!]

Okay cooleustary, stop putting the blame on your parents!

Folks, don't be lazy like me. Put the priority. First thing first. Vital to less vital. Important to less important. Learn your priority.
Here, let me teach you ---> The Mayonnaise Jar and Two Cups of Coffee


And one thing, money is NOT everything.


Have a nice sem ahead, wish you all, all the best! And do the best! I know you can do it.


See ya!

Examination

Maafkan saya kerana basically dah lama xupdate blog dengan benda2 yang berfaedah [slame ni berfaedah ke??]


Saya, dan seluruh warga UiTM satu Malaysia akn pergi bertempur di medan perang, menemukan kami dengan musuh terbesar kami iaitu peperiksaan, dan juga musuh dalam selimut, iaitu sifat malas kami sendiri, bersenjatakan pen serta kertas dan ilmu yang insyaallah penuh didada.


Anda dan ANDA yang terbaca post ini, saya mintak tolonglah doakan kejayaan kami disamping keberkatan ilmu yang telah kami pelajari selama ini serta dipermudahkan kami untuk menjawab peperiksaan ini.


Sem ni saya belajar 8 subjek, tolak 1 subjek yang xada exam [c programming], mknenye ade 7 paper yang bakal diperangi. Harap-harap bolehlah dapat result yang cemerlang insyaalah.


Ahhhh lagi satu, umur saya akan genap 21 tahun hujung bulan ni. [xperlu kot] nanti dah nak tarikh tu, exam kot, jadi sy xexpect la orang akan ingat. Xpe xyah ingat pon xpe [xmaw ngaku diri tua] haha..

Tuai padi anta masak,

Esok jangan layu-layuan,

Intai kami antara nampak,

Esok jangan rindu-rinduan.

Kalau ada sumur di ladang,

Boleh saya menumpang mandi?,

Kalau ada umur yang panjang,

Insyaallah kita jumpa lagi.

Kalau ada jarum yang patah,

Jangan disimpan didalam peti,

Kalau ada silap dan salah,

Jangan disimpan didalam hati.

Ewaahh~

ok lah terimakasih kerana membaca. Insyaalah berjumpa lagi. 
Semoga berjaya kpd warga UiTM (^_^)v juga kepada menber2 len yang bakal bertempur jugak..


p/s: Mode - pulun jgn xpulun~ stadi smpai muntah!

Kertas itu...

Aku atur kertas satu persatu. Mana yang berkaitan, aku stapler. Mana yg mungkin tak digunakan lagi, aku gumpal lalu kucampakkan ke satu sudut untuk dibuang. Sedang aku melakukan proses "pengemasan" kertas2 dalam almari itu, aku ternampak 'paper final' untuk subjek 'itu'. Sebelum ini, aku masih mampu mengatasi rasa terkilan dan hiba kerana terpaksa me'repeat' subjek itu. Aku masih mampu bergelak ketawa dan bermuka bersahaja jika topik ini menjadi bualan. Tapi kini, perasaan geram bermaharajalela dalam hatiku. Perasaan benci mula memenuhi urat saraf tanganku. Lalu otakku menghantar impuls ke tanganku untuk merenyuk-renyukkan kertas tersebut walaupun aku tahu ia akan digunakan lagi semester hadapan. Kelopak mataku sudah digenangi air tetapi masih tidak tertumpah ke pipi.

"KENAPA KAU XBAGI AKU LULUS??" bisik hati kecilku sambil mataku memandang benci kearah kertas yang sedang direnyukkan itu. Seolah-olah kertas itu mempunyai telinga untuk mendengar serta otak untuk mentafsirkannya. Tiba-tiba aku tersedar. 

"Nadia! Apa yang kau cuba buat ni? Dah dah betulkan balik kertas tu, nak guna lagi sem depan" tingkah akalku. Akal selalunya lebih waras dari hati. Sekali lagi otakku menghantar impuls kepada tanganku, tetapi kali ini untuk me'rata'kan kertas yang telah direnyukkan tadi. Kertas itu tidak berdosa. Malah kertas itulah yang berbakti untuk menunjukkan soalan kepadaku.

Yang benar-benar bersalah dalam hal ini, adalah aku sendiri. Nafsu malasku yang dibiarkan bertakhta dan berkuasa keatas diriku sewenang-wenangnya merupakan punca utama kepada masalahku ini. Walaupun aku fikir aku sudah berusaha sedaya upaya, mungkin itu bukan sedaya upaya. Mungkin itu hanya sedikit tetapi dianggap sedaya upaya olehku. Kendati banyak manapun rakan-rakanku yang mengajarku, jika aku sendiri tidak mencuba, masih tidak berguna. Aku tahu, aku yang perlu mengubah diriku sendiri barulah nasibku akan berubah, bukannya mengharapkan dunia disekelilingku berubah.

Aku tahu Allah sudah menetapkan yang terbaik untukku, mungkin ini merupakan titik permulaan supaya aku menjadi lebih gigih. Dan aku juga tahu, jika Allah memberikan kita sesuatu ujian, maka Dia tahu kita mampu untuk menghadapinya. Allah tahu kekuatan kita setakat mana. Jadi, percayalah setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya.

Andai aku leka, maka tegurlah aku... AZA2 FIGHTING!!! (^_^)V

p/s:

-Tahniah kepada mereka yang dapat result yg cemerlang, mksud aku yang result die meningkat dari sebelumnye (^_^)

-TQ kepada mereka2 yang rajin ajar aku mase aku xpaham... syg korg!!

Missing Cooleustary-PC

Sekarang musim exam. Minggu ni minggu first sbnarnye, n aku baru abis 1st paper. Dlm jangkamasa ni, byk bnda yg brlaku, yg da ubah sdikit sbanyak hidup aku n diri aku. Tentang frenship aku. Tentang konfusion aku yg da berakhir. Tentang masalah orang lain yang timbul, yang aku merupakan antara puncanya. Aku tau kau terkilan sebab die da me'lari'kan diri. Aku tetap rase bersalah wlaupon kau kate aku xbersalah. N paling penting, aku tetap rasa sedih tgok kau sedih. Tapi bnde dah berlaku, Allah je tau hikmahnye. Mungkin kau akn jumpe org yg lebih baik dr die. Mungkin, tapi jgn lupa kita hnya mmpu merancang, Allah je yg menentukan sume. N Takdir Allah adalah yg terbaik utk hamba-Nya. Aku tau, cakap mmg senang, tapi akupon prnah jugak rasa bnda yg cmni, so aku tau pe yg kau rasa.

Laptop aku rosak. OS kne serang, so xleh nk bkk lngsung. Ayah kate boleh kalo nk recover, tapi kene carik CD die. Aku malas nk pikirkan pasal 2 dulu, so aku delay OPERASI PENCARIAN CD itu ke 'lepas abeh final'. Buat masa ni, mmg final diutamakan. Malam tadi, aku mimpi laptop aku hidop seperti sediakala. Aku main dgn laptop tu dgn riang gembiranya. Rasa gumbira sgt dlm mimpi tu. Aku harap sgt mimpi tu adalah realiti, tapi bile tersedar dr tidur, rupenye itu hanya mainan tidur aku. Mungkin aku terlalu fikirkan hal laptop itu walaupon aku nmpk macam xkisah. Bak kate sorg kwn aku, muke aku kan "poker face". Hehe...

Ok lah, aku xnk tulis pnjg2 sgt nnti jd emo pulak. Tenkiu for reading until here.

Tolong doakn kejayaan kami ye; aku dgn kawan2 aku.

Terimas~ (^_^)

Sentimental session

Sorry I kinda bz for last few weeks, since the 'cuti raya' ended. I don't even have time to breath freely, without thinking bout those bundle of works that keep bugging me. With the mini projects, lab mini project, presentation etc etc etc....

Something happened juz now that really pull down my coolness. I feel like stupid dolls that can easily be played when 'they' want and push around when 'they' didn't. I sacrifice my sleep [u know how much i like to sleep] juz to finish up the damn mini project report since the deadline is today. I rushed early to faculty even though my class started at 10.30a.m. The most 'amazing' thing is, I didn't even touch my DIGITAL notes but I got Digital test today. I didn't know a single thing what I've answered just now. It was really frustrating since the questions were really easy and straight to the point and I can answer it freely IF I study. I repeat, IF!. But the fact is, I didn't!

Then, after the 'kelam-kabut' session ended, and we manage to finish up our report, my lab partner received a message said that the report can be submitted on FRIDAY. Just imagine how much time we've spend last night without revising for out test today, just to know that the damn report's deadline have been delayed??

Lots of things happened, lots of things changed. I hardly see myself in the mirror. Even my mom said she hardly see me home even though I lived here. Lots of my favourite things been left behind by this busy schedule.

I miss eating Baskin Robin's
I miss swimming wif my bros
I miss bowling wif my fellas
I miss eating crackers wif warm tea
I miss doing our own brand of 'float' and drink it together
I miss hanging out at the mall just to pass the time
I miss buying and reading comics every time I see one
I miss watching movies wif my family
I miss watching supernatural
I miss eating rainbow ice-cream wif bread
I miss laughing out loud like nuts

and I miss lots of things I didn't mention here.....

Time will always pass us by, leaving the memories behind.
We can never go back in time, but we can always turn back and smile to the warm memories.
Life isn't always bout being happy, sometimes we need problems to spice things up.
When we're in the middle of tough times, just remember that it will end.
When we're happy, cherish every moment of it.
Don't let small things get between you and your happiness.
Break rules! Rules are meant to be broken.
Smile to the world and the world will smile back at you.

Last but not least, never give up! If you give up now, u can never know what you can do in future..

Thanks for reading until here (^_^)

Raya Mode :D

This raya, it bring back lots of memory to me. And also, create some new ones. I went back to my early years, playing fire crackers wif my little brothers. I still get 'duit raya' even though the reality is I'm already 20.

Loads of wonderful thing actually.

This raya, for the first time in many years [as long as I remember], my dad hugged me on the 'salam-salam' session. The hug just short and casual, but it's really warm and meaningful for me.

Staying at my hometown Terengganu for almost a week make me realize lots of thing. Things that I usually ignored before. I made lots of thinking there. Bout my life recently. Bout my friends. Bout my family.

My dear friends, I just wanna say sorry cause recently, I talked too much. Sorry for my ignorance.
Sorry for not knowing ur story, ur pain and ur tears. Sorry for doing much talking, and less listening.
Sorry for the 'lantak koranglah' attitude. Sorry for the 'takde perasaan' face.
Sorry for every action that bring up ur sad or anger. Sorry for each word that hurts. Sorry for any glance that makes u wonder. Sorry for things that I take or borrow without ur permission. Please remind me if I do.
And many other things that I didn't mention here, I'm truly sorry.

I am the most luckiest person on earth to have friends as good as you are. Yes you, each and every of you that reads this crap.

I know, I talked too much this sem. So I promise to myself, to do less talking and more listening after this. Especially bout That Particular Person. I just realize, the more I talk bout That Particular Person, the more I put That Particular Person in trouble. The more I talk bout That Particular Person, the more assuming people will make bout That Particular Person. Thus, the best way is, stop talking bout That Particular Person. Rite?

Okay I've said what I wanna say. Let me conclude things here.

• To whom didn't understand things I wrote here, please ask me. Don't make ur own assumptions.
• Sometimes we think meddling in other's business is a way to show our concern. No, I don't say its a bad thing. Firstly, thanks for opening my eyes wide. But the other person might been hurt by ur words... huhu
  
• Please get to know that person first before u make wild assumption bout him/her based on little rumors u've heard. U'll regret it later if u do that.
• Last but not least, there is no revenge so sweet as forgiveness. People makes mistakes everyday. Everybody makes mistakes, that's just what we do. As long as we hold grudge against that person, we'll never be in peace. Trust me, giving forgiveness is far more easy and worth it than revenge. Unbelievable? Try it first, then enjoy the taste of forgiveness' sweet. Good luck!
• Salam aidilfitri, and maaf zahir batin...
  

Thanks for reading until here (^_^)
n sorry for the crappy grammar and language....

p/s : post ni agk pjg n emo... kalo rse bosan, xyah bce... haha

Orang beriman = sejuk??

Aku nak crite bnde ni smalam, tapi lupe lak pe yg nk diceritakan... Hari ni lepas kluar ngan Nad barulah teringat..

Lokasi : Kelas Power
Situasi : Blaja induction motor, n baru lepas berbuka.
Masa : lbih kurg 8.30mlm laa

En. Khairul ni, macam biasa die suke aja sikit, lepas 2 bagi latihan. Masa kami tegah buat latihan yg dia bg, dia pon agk membebel la. Tadi aku nmpk ade abg 2 soh Salwa naikkan suhu air-cond sblum berbuke sbb keadaan masa 2 mmg sgtla sejuk. Tapi, lepas berbuka, body heat 2 bertambah, memndgkan masing2 punya perut dah diisi dengan fuel yg pelbagai. Jadi haba pon banyak yang keluar berbanding masa perut kosong.

Jadi, En. Khairul pon suruhla si Salwa ni turunkan suhu air-cond.

"Air-cond xde ke? panas ni.. haa kuatkanla sikit air-cond 2",

N salwa pon turunkanla suhu air-cond tu. Lepas 2 E. Khairul masih membebel lagi.

"Petang td sejuk, skarang panas pulak. Bile dah bukak puasa banyak lah pulak haba yang kuar. Ye la, sume da makan kan. Sebab tu la org beriman yg rajin pose ni, sejuk je",

kenyataan 2 agk mrepek la gak kn. Tapi, trime je la. Die kn lecturer kite. hehehe...

Sensei + kami = wonderpets??

Lokasi : dalam kelas circuit 2
Masa : lebih kurang 8.30 - 9.30 malam
Keadaan : belajar pasal reasonance

Sensei bagi kami 2 soalan sblum kami boleh balik rumah. Kemudian, sensei membimbing kami cara2 menjawab soalan2 tersebut. Bila masuk soalan ke-2, sensei lebih banyak bertanya kami cara utk selesaikan soalan tersebut memndangkan kami dah mula paham dan agak expert [kononnya].

Soalan ke-2, bila sensei tanye, kamipon dengan smangatnye jwb beramai2 [sbb nak balik cepat2 hehe]. Tapi, cara penyelesaian kami lain dgn yg sensei nak aja, jd sensei pon buat muka pelik. Dan sensei pon berkata;

"Eh, lain pulak dengan skima. Xpe, kite cuba dulu",

Dan setelah mencuba2 soaln tersebut, dengan cara penyelesaian kami sendiri, kami pon dapatlah jwpn yg sama dengan skima. Kemudian, sensei pon berkata;

"Okey, kat sini, ape yg penting?",

lalu kamipon menjawab berjemaah;
"KERJASAMA!!",

Tiba2 sume smangat wonderpets hehe... dan kami tergelak beramai2 kerana kami tahu bukan itu jwpn yg dimaksudkan sensei. Sensei sebenarnye nak kami paham ape yg dah dipelajari td, spy nnt kalau masuk periksa, xdelah terkontang kanting memandangkan tajuk tersebut banyak la pulak rumusnya.

sensei berkata dengan sedikit snyuman dihujung bibirnya;
"Yang penting kamu kene ingat rumus2 ni datang dr mane. Dalam exam, dah xde dah kerjasama2 ni",

Agak terpukul ye dengan kata2 tersebut, tapi kami tahu itulah hakikatnya. Sape nak tolong dalam dewan exam tu. Diri sndiri pon xtertolong, apetah lagi nak tolong orang lain, betul x?

Hectic day yet ended perfectly...

Ohh... I've smell it I've smell it!!
smell what??
something rotten in here, cause the owner didn't update it for weeks!
okey dearies, now I'm updating it...

Many things happened, unthinkable things actually. I would like to tell it here, but maybe later. Just understand it this way, I'm ALMOST fooled by a sweet tongue person, and luckily I have my friends beside me, n I am really grateful for that. Thanks friends, I think I'm still fooled now if u guys were not there huhu...

Let me tell you bout what happened a day before yesterday, that is Tuesday. My class started with lab[at 2.10pm] , so I'm on road right after performing zuhur prayer. I thought there were many vacant parking lot if i arrive early, but it's not that "many". I forgot now is month of fasting, so majority of students just wandering around the faculty building since they didn't eat. Fortunately there one or two parking left for me, so I take it, happily hee~.

The lab is a bit disaster actually. I'm looking forward to do this experiment because it seems interesting compared to other. Unfortunately, there is one step that the lab instructor forgot to tell us to do, and it ruined THE WHOLE experiment, so we have to start from a scratch again if we want it to turn out well. Its soo damn devastating to hear it, and to do that over again. Then, the lab instructor asks us if we understand the procedure, and we say yes.
So he said, "its okay no need to redo the experiment, but I want the report TODAY, before you break your fast! "
and we like "what the fish?"
and he urges us to finish the lab report in the library. Guess what the time is? About 4.45 n I have class during six. I prepare nothing but some dates to break my fast, not even water, and we're all clueless about the report. After a few moments, we arrive at the library, and some of us searching for previous weeks lab report from their friends, and poof! there it is!
N then we started to write the report with broken language, some copy paste here and there, ugly writing, and some blank procedure [since the experiment failed in the middle]. Bla bla bla, n yes, it is done!

After it is done, my lab partner kindly offers himself to submit the report since I got class at six. Thank you, partner!!! hehehe...
And then I realize that for the rest of this week, we didn't have to think bout the report since we've finish it.. So I feel relieved for a while..


guess thats all for that day...
I guess it's kinda hectic day, yet ended perfectly. C ya again!