Waiting Hurts

I really hate this feeling...
feeling alone when u're in the crowd..
feeling lonely when everyone is around you...
laughing but crying...
smiling but sad...
telling everyone "OK" but its actually "KO"...
act like Ur life is full but the real is empty...
make everyone believe that u're happy...
pretend like everything is perfect, but its not...
when I'm missing someone, this is the life...

you come, than you go...
today you're here, chatting, but tomorrow u're gone,
u may think u left nothing behind,
but u're wrong....

there's some hope u leave here...
make the person u left keep waiting...
n keep wondering, when will u show up...
counting the days, every single day...
turn the hopes into waiting,
waiting into missing,
and make the missing fruitless...

please, give this waiting a full stop...
i just can't bear it anymore... :(