Majlis mimpi

Semalam aku bermimpi. Diijab kabulkan. Aku nampak mukanya. Majlis yang sederhana, tapi cukup untuk buat aku bahagia. Iya lah, berkongsi hari paling gembira bersama insan insan yang bermakna.

Aku pakai baju gaun warna merah jambu. Diiring dari bilik ke tempat majlis berlangsung. Sepatuku tidak kelihatan. Kemudian tiba tiba ibu saudaraku mencadangkan satu sepatu lama. Aku bersetuju, walau sepatu itu kira kira tiga kali ganda saiz kakiku.
Sedang berjalan beriringan dari bilik ke tempat majlis berlangsung, tiba tiba aku dikejutkan untuk bersahur.

Selepas bersahur aku sambung lena [perangai pemalas jangan ikut]. Mimpi itu bersambung, tapi aku tidak ingat butirnya. Walau hanya mimpi, perasaan bahagia itu seolah olah nyata.

Aku kisahkan cerita ini kepada keluargaku. Mayah kata, mungkia dia juga mimpi begitu. Semoga itu petanda jodohku :-)
Aminn

Random Thoughts

Just really need a place to rest my thoughts. Rasa macam dah hilang orang orang yang aku kisah, lepas habis belajar ni. Ada salah aku, aku tahu. Tapi aku rindu masa mereka semua ada.

Si dia diam aje. Sepatah aku tanya, sepatah lah jawabnye. Kadang kadang tak terpatah. Bila dia di rumah, kalau boleh aku mahu kurangkan gangguan kepada dia. Orang putih kata, maybe I come out too strongly. Atau mungkin, semua ni dalam kepala aku je. Siapa tahu, kan?

Salah seorang kawan rapat, pun begitu. Aku fikir sesuatu dah berlaku, bila tanya, bukan rupanya. Ada sebab lain. Aku cuba untuk mengerti. Kadang kadang kita tak sedar benda kecik yang kita buat mampu jadi benda besar untuk orang lain, sampai buat kita rasa kita hilang dia.

Kelmarin, Tiqa minta tolong aku alih barang dia ke kolej. Secara tiba tiba aku bercerita. Macam banyak bercakap nak banding dengan keadaan biasa.

Baru aku sedar, dah lama aku tak bercerita begitu. Dengan sesiapa. Orang orang kesayangan aku diam seribu bahasa.

Tapi bila fikir balik, kalau mereka benar kepada aku, mereka akan terima aku seadanya kan?

Jadi, disinilah aku bercerita. Kadang kadang habiskan masa dengan menonton supernatural. Naqib lah peneman setia. Kadang kadang bercakap jugak dengan sheldon. Tapi dia hamster, bukan faham kita.

Aku percaya things will be better. Lagipun minggu depan pun aku akan mula kursus 3p, jadi harapnye kuranglah fikiran gila macam ni.

Lagipun, Allah kan ada. :-)

The time machine

DeLorean

She keeps thinking on how things could be differently if she stay put on her decision two years ago. Thus, she ride the time machine she found and meet her. The foolish heartbroken girl that she was two years ago.

beep beep beep-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------2010

It was kinda awkward seeing and talking to herself. the opening line was
"Hey girl, I am you, two years from now."

The past her still mesmerized by the fact that they'll be time machine in that short period of time. And then pull herself together and ask the future her
"Are you sure you're not my imagination, a vivid one?"

"No, silly. Oh by the way the time machine is not mine, I found it when I am walking down the street so I use it to go back to you".

"So you steal it?"

"No, its not stealing, its just borrowing"

"Yeah whatever. So, how's life treating you? You have finished your degree right? Do you have any boyfriend?"

"Almost finished, I guess. Hey listen to me, carefully. Something so amazing will happen to you in two months, but please please stay put on what are you deciding right now"

"But why?"

"Its kinda stupid. You don't know how many tears your stupid decision have cost me. How many heartache I has to mend just because you don't think clearly now"

"Hey its my decision and its my choice. If it is a mistake, let me learn the lesson. By the way what's so amazing that I can't resist it?"

"I won't tell you, you'll know later. You know what, life is good now in your time actually. You don't know many things that can break your heart. You're still pure. Don't waste it. And please study harder."

"What's with the study harder? hahaha"

"Yeahhh who am I kidding, we both know we're lazy ass. Please promise me you'll take this advice. But for some reason I think you won't"

"Of course I won't. Why wouldn't I take a shot on something that I want?"

"Because when you've attached to it, when it's almost over, or when it is just uncertainties, it really crush you into pieces. No glue can fix that. I'll give anything to be like you. To not know anything. To be a free spirit."

"But I will be stronger, right? and you know that everything happens for a reason, right?"

"Of course dear. Okay my time machine has started beeping. I have to go. Remember my advice okay!"

"I'll think about it"

beep beep beep ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------2012

And yet, things are still the same.

Cerry Berry

Assalamualaikum. Kali ni aku nak cerita pasal Naqib yang demam. Sebelum tu aku nak ingatkan, esok nisfu Syaaban, jadi banyak-banyak kan lah beramal malam ini oleh kerana malam ini malam nisfu syaaban.

Berbalik kepada Naqib, dah dua hari termasuk hari ni beliau tak ke sekolah. Semalam sakit kepala katanya, tak berapa nak panas. Hari ni, mak suruh aku bawak Naqib pergi klinik. Sampai di klinik, macam biasa Doc  Sabrina akan tanya

"Ok, sakit apa ni Naqib?"

Naqib pun malu malu kucing jawab

"Demam"

Lepas tu aku cerita lah kat doc yang Naqib ada berry berry lepas tu ada vomit vomit sikit. Doc pun tanya, dah berapa kali berry, Naqib jawab dalam dua kali macam tu.

Doc tanya lagi

"Dah berapa kali muntah?"

Naqib kata

"Pagi tadi muntah bukak sebab demam, muntah sebab bau 'berry' busuk sangat"

Doc pon terus tersenyum kecik sambil facepalm dengar jawapan Naqib yang bernas itu

"Eh pandai pandai je dia bagi sebab"

Aku dah tergelak gelak dah tapi sopan lah sikit, tempat orang kan.