Waktu berlari, patah hati

"Datang lah rumah Bak, sementara Bak masih ada ni"

Aku hanya tersenyum dan mengangguk.

"Sekarang Bak sorang2 je"

Mukaku berkerut sedikit tanda tidak memahami. Setahu ku, ramai yang tinggal di rumah Bak.

"Uncle Mena kan dah takda,  jadi tinggal bak sorang aja"

Baruku faham. Uncle Mena meninggal dunia raya tahun ini. Jadi tinggal Bak sorang lelaki 'veteran' dalam keluarga kami.

Usia kita semakin meningkat. Bukan usia aku sahaja,  tetapi juga usia orang di sekelilingku. Yang dahulunya kanak2 hingusan sudah menapak ke menara gading. Perubahan itu pasti.

Minggu ini,  banyak perkara yang membuatku patah hati. Sabtu lepas aku terjumpa seekor anak kucing yang dilanggar kereta. Alhamdulillah dia masih bernyawa. Aku ambil dan bela,  menjadi misi untuk anak kucing ini.

Akan tetapi setiap kali aku melihat ia,  aku jadi patah hati. Kesian. Simpati. Empati. Aku mahu dia sembuh. Tak sanggup lagi melihat ia sakit begini.

Patah hati juga mendengar Bak kata begitu. Aku faham kenapa,  cuma masa yang berlari terlalu laju, kadangkala tidak mampu untuk aku mengejar semua. Aku doakan yang terbaik untuk dia. Aku tahu,  dia pun begitu.

12: Words or phrases that makes me laugh

Butt

Oh yes, I'm 5.

And this is not exactly a phrase or word, but please take a look at this FRIENDS bloopers

11: Relationship status

Your current relationship; if single, discuss that too.

Currently I'm single. And you know what, being a 27 years old lady and single at the same time seems to be a "problem" to certain elderly, but for me its not.

I actually just confessed to someone that I had a crush on him. I won't expose his name but I had a crush on him since I'm about 16-17. Hopefully he wont read this post [because who blogs anymore nowadays?] nor think that I'm a stalker or something.

Back to being single. I'm free to do whatever I want, with whoever I want. It spares me the heartache that being in a relationship doesn't. Probably in my first relationship I'm not mature enough hence the heartache and craziness is always there. [Sorry mister ex]

I honestly think that it's better to be single than to be in the wrong relationship. If you often feel lonely even when you're in a relationship, chances are that is the wrong relationship for you. At least that's what I felt before. Communication is key to relationship.

I see many people treat their boyfriend/girlfriend like spouses, I mean come on, calm your titties, you're not even married yet, pump the brakes a little, don't go overboard with all the affection [especially pda] and the controlling and so on, it suffocate me to watch couples like this.

Entering the "mating age" for my generation, I notice something. The word "me" or "I" become "we" or "us". And yes, sometimes its annoying to see people disappears in their spouses' identity until they lost theirs. Some woman that I know is strong before getting married suddenly becomes damsel in distress after. I don't know, I'm just the DIY gal, I hate to be a damsel in distress. I just feel that its makes me look weak.

All that been said, I have to justify something; I'm not against relationship or so, just that its sad to think that people lost themselves when they they're in one. If you can't fully be yourself in front of the person you love, then, when?

10: Fruit that I dislike

A fruit that you dislike and why?

Honeydew

In our language, honeydew translates as "tembikai susu" which literal translation would be "milk watermelon" and yes, it taste and smell a bit like milk. Milk is not my cup of tea, hence explains my dislikes upon honeydew.

Have a wonderful weekend guys!

9: Ageism

Your feelings on ageism

What the heck is ageism?

"Ageism is stereotyping and discriminating against individuals or groups on the basis of their age"

Okay. Erm. I actually have mixed feelings about this. I'm the type of person that doesn't really care about those things; skin colour, looks, age etc. And I don't really like it if people call me "kak" which means"older sister" in Malay. For me, if you're graceful enough, there's no need to such nickname.

Ageism. Seems like a small issue, but happens everywhere. It even happens when I'm in high school. People try to prove that they are more "senior" than you thus you MUST respect them. Oddly enough in college, it's not a big issue. Everyone is the same. But I heard from my friends, at work, older people crave this "senior respect" thing. It becomes a problem when they want us to listen to them, but they rarely return the favor.

 Age is just a number. Why do I say that? There are old people who act like a teenager. there are teenager mature enough more than an adult could ever be. One's mature-ness shouldn't be judged by their age, but rather by their attitude.

I wish I could write further but I kinda space out and out of points.

See ya later

Have a great day!